its been a long time since ive blogged, but right now, im having a mental breakdown im just gonna talk out of my ass.
im so stressed out. today couldnt be worse. im not even going to go into detail
imma just let people know, please dont fuck with me right now, cuase its a period in my life right now that has been a struggle for me to get past, and my emotions are all over the place.
so as for now, im really busy. dont bother me. nor waste my time.
please.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
update.
damn, its been a LONG time since ive blogged. but its all good though, ive just been busy with stuff.
apparently, i have a net stalker who is very much interested in my life, to the extent that they've gone to aim my old "friend" of mine. hmm, i wonder whom that could be. but anyways, idreallycare anymore.
i really have nothing to say either.
im just busy with work, school and studying, and thats my only and main concern at this moment.
not to mention i have sats this weekend.
oh btw, chung kim, is pretty fucking awesome. i would blogg about him more, but right now, imma take a nap. since its half day and i have a workshop to go to around 230.
apparently, i have a net stalker who is very much interested in my life, to the extent that they've gone to aim my old "friend" of mine. hmm, i wonder whom that could be. but anyways, idreallycare anymore.
i really have nothing to say either.
im just busy with work, school and studying, and thats my only and main concern at this moment.
not to mention i have sats this weekend.
oh btw, chung kim, is pretty fucking awesome. i would blogg about him more, but right now, imma take a nap. since its half day and i have a workshop to go to around 230.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
a load of bullshit
sometimes people are so blind to the hurt that they have cause others, they soon move along with their life with no intentions on finding the truth behind my bitterness.
i dont get mad at someone for no reason. i dont stay mad at someone for no reason.
trust that, i dont have a cold heart, its just, people who dont take accountability for their actions in which it has affected ME, should i show no sign of remorse or sympathy in which they have caused me hurt, pain, agony and/or frustration.
dont apologize for your actions if you dont understand what and why you are apologizing .
put yourself in my position. listen and remember the things youve said to me.
its just, the thing i hate most is being unappreciated and used and taken advantage of, all feeling which i felt for that period of time i knew you, simple because the words you would spit and yell in my face, mattered. it may have not mattered to you, but it does to me. even if you were just talking out of frustration and anger (which you werent, as you said yourself) -- the things you say to people, it affects them, as it did me. all the things you said to me PROVE that, all the time i spent for you, on you, and with you meant nothing to you. all the tihngs you said to me prove that all my efforts in helping you and making you realize that i genuinely cared, dont matter. all the things youve said to me out of anger and frustration still rings in my ears. and if you dont remember or consider why i might be so bitter, than i have no reason to become less emotional from it.
and for you to toy with my emotions simple for your own entertainment really still says a lot about you. its the fact that you are still an inconsiderate selfcentered ass hole, cause what person who has "grown" and "changed into a better person" does that? you may have "grown" in the sense that you picked up your life a bit, but as for your shitty personality, it still shines through that fake armour that i once saw you in.
youre looking into a mirror and only see the reflection of your cute smiling face. turn the mirror a bit and see whats behind you, cause its not always about you.
i dont get mad at someone for no reason. i dont stay mad at someone for no reason.
trust that, i dont have a cold heart, its just, people who dont take accountability for their actions in which it has affected ME, should i show no sign of remorse or sympathy in which they have caused me hurt, pain, agony and/or frustration.
dont apologize for your actions if you dont understand what and why you are apologizing .
put yourself in my position. listen and remember the things youve said to me.
its just, the thing i hate most is being unappreciated and used and taken advantage of, all feeling which i felt for that period of time i knew you, simple because the words you would spit and yell in my face, mattered. it may have not mattered to you, but it does to me. even if you were just talking out of frustration and anger (which you werent, as you said yourself) -- the things you say to people, it affects them, as it did me. all the things you said to me PROVE that, all the time i spent for you, on you, and with you meant nothing to you. all the tihngs you said to me prove that all my efforts in helping you and making you realize that i genuinely cared, dont matter. all the things youve said to me out of anger and frustration still rings in my ears. and if you dont remember or consider why i might be so bitter, than i have no reason to become less emotional from it.
and for you to toy with my emotions simple for your own entertainment really still says a lot about you. its the fact that you are still an inconsiderate selfcentered ass hole, cause what person who has "grown" and "changed into a better person" does that? you may have "grown" in the sense that you picked up your life a bit, but as for your shitty personality, it still shines through that fake armour that i once saw you in.
youre looking into a mirror and only see the reflection of your cute smiling face. turn the mirror a bit and see whats behind you, cause its not always about you.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
new year?
dang, so basically i havent blogged in FOREVER! lets just say ive been busy winterbreak. HAHA.
well, i pretty much had a pretty chill winterbreak. i spent most of my time with my best friend (mikey FROST) cruising and what not. no doubt there was a few drama shit, but that was done and dealt with pretty quickly. man, i think i pulled like five all nighters. like, all after new years eve. it was crazy. there were two nights, where i didnt sleep at all. i believe it was new years day, i came home at 9am. slept till five. mikey woke me up, got ready, and went out again till like... idevenknow how long. but nonetheless, it was pretty fun. its starting to become a blurr since a lot happend.
but new years eve/day:
so, basically i drove around all of san diego with like five other cars, trying to find a party. it didnt happen. i ended up doing the count down in my car! but its okay, i had mikey and his [ex] bf in the car. i went to mikeys grandmas house that night. got woken up, cause some of my friends were stranded at like three in the morning. picked them up. stayed out till nine. thats a night i wont forget (; "BACKSEAT ACTION OHHH, all in the middle of traffic ohh. bout to pull over and give you the business!! " but, no one knows what im talking about.
hmm, then the rest of the days were like every other day. cruising in the car, running low on gas and what not. but its okay, me and mikey had fun (:
oh, and i saw MDR again. id just like to mention that, its not that i hate HIM, i just hate the person he is. like his personality and what not. and i know im not the only one. (the ones that know him atleast) . like, here you have this "good looking guy" but his personality is so shitty, he is automatically ugly in my eyes. but anyways, that doesnt really matter, since he doesnt matter.
OH OH OH! i forgot to mention. i met larry and ricky for the first time, i believe this past weekend. OH MAN IS RICKY HILARIOUS! he says some FUNNNYYYY shit when hes drunk. me mikey ricky and larry ended up pulling an all nighter. at least me and larry did, since the other two slept a bit. we were just parked right in front of kevins house (no not urslich) so yeah.
ill try to blog more ofter. i got shit to do right now.
OH as for MICHAEL DELOSREYES, get a life, and stay out of mine. why are you sitting in front of a computer reading blogs about a 16 year olds life. grow up. and stay the fuck away from me.
well, i pretty much had a pretty chill winterbreak. i spent most of my time with my best friend (mikey FROST) cruising and what not. no doubt there was a few drama shit, but that was done and dealt with pretty quickly. man, i think i pulled like five all nighters. like, all after new years eve. it was crazy. there were two nights, where i didnt sleep at all. i believe it was new years day, i came home at 9am. slept till five. mikey woke me up, got ready, and went out again till like... idevenknow how long. but nonetheless, it was pretty fun. its starting to become a blurr since a lot happend.
but new years eve/day:
so, basically i drove around all of san diego with like five other cars, trying to find a party. it didnt happen. i ended up doing the count down in my car! but its okay, i had mikey and his [ex] bf in the car. i went to mikeys grandmas house that night. got woken up, cause some of my friends were stranded at like three in the morning. picked them up. stayed out till nine. thats a night i wont forget (; "BACKSEAT ACTION OHHH, all in the middle of traffic ohh. bout to pull over and give you the business!! " but, no one knows what im talking about.
hmm, then the rest of the days were like every other day. cruising in the car, running low on gas and what not. but its okay, me and mikey had fun (:
oh, and i saw MDR again. id just like to mention that, its not that i hate HIM, i just hate the person he is. like his personality and what not. and i know im not the only one. (the ones that know him atleast) . like, here you have this "good looking guy" but his personality is so shitty, he is automatically ugly in my eyes. but anyways, that doesnt really matter, since he doesnt matter.
OH OH OH! i forgot to mention. i met larry and ricky for the first time, i believe this past weekend. OH MAN IS RICKY HILARIOUS! he says some FUNNNYYYY shit when hes drunk. me mikey ricky and larry ended up pulling an all nighter. at least me and larry did, since the other two slept a bit. we were just parked right in front of kevins house (no not urslich) so yeah.
ill try to blog more ofter. i got shit to do right now.
OH as for MICHAEL DELOSREYES, get a life, and stay out of mine. why are you sitting in front of a computer reading blogs about a 16 year olds life. grow up. and stay the fuck away from me.
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