last night ; this morning; other shit.

i woke up, about two hours ago. i was pretty tired. but then again, i just didnt want to wake up. now, i feel and look like shit. and im hungry. im listening to the profile song on my blog, and its pretty sad. but anyways, i just thought id blog, since i havent for a couple of days.

THE PAST FEW DAYS- LAST NIGHT;
well, i already blogged about what i did on christmas, or what happened at least. but yeah, after that whole dilemma, aaron invited me to his moms side of the family's house. and we just ate dinner there, and left. i hung out with tommy on friday. we just chilled at ate. as usual. then, saturday night, dennis gave me and mikey a ride to this party. which didnt start till about like 930, cause everyone was just standing around. we left around 12, since i guess, it was over. i was sweating like a pig. it was SOO hot in that house. there were a couple of times where the party stopped because someone lost a phone or something, or like, the music would stop and play. i was dancing for the most parts of that night. there was this one part, where i was dancing with james against the wall with james, i think it was one of those slow songs, idr, and like, this guy asked me to dance first, but like james kinda stepped in and like went behind me, and we started dancing, and then that dude, just like moved james out of the way and tried to start dancing with me. i turned around and was like "Wtf?" and james walked away i think. but i guess they were homies or w/e. so yeah. OH and like, there was this dude that i was dancing with, like he was grabbing me all over. and i was like "umm, okay?" until he like, put his hands on my vagina (i dont know if that was an accident or not) and i like, stopped dancing with him. i wasnt drunk, just a little buzzed. i drank some stuff, that tasted like juice. i didnt even know what it was. i think one of my home girls bree gave it to me. but yeahhh. i was dancing with this guy named scott near the end of the night as he was leaning about the couch. OH, i saw adam! lol. he was rolling. HAHA. but yeah, i finally met mikeys boyfriend. he is soooo cute! ahhaha. Oh, and fucking mikey told me i should "slide that bitch" whom was at the party. and i was like nooo, that would be bad, cause we would end up bitch fighting all over the place, and it would cause LOTS of drama. anyways, i met a guy named tony, and larry, and one of dennis' cousin? i think it was his cousin. OH and i met stacey and donna for the first time. but yeah. towards the very end of the night, fucking ____ did something. and i was like "whoaaa!?" i guess i could of expected it, but like, not all that soon. i think he did like, three times. the third time, it was more umm. how would you say it, serious? but not like really serious, cause it was like for two seconds. haha i felt like a little kid again. getting all giggle and shy and blushing and shit, ierno. the alcohol couldve affected me. but yeah, i cant deny that i didnt like it. but then again, idk how i felt about it. its like, i wanted more, but then again, thats bad. idk, im confused in that whole general area about guys. idk what i want. i feel confused. whatever. anyways, after that, dennis and i went to the hookah bar, and he had to leave so niko ended up taking me home. i got around four. we ate a burrito before i got home. which was pretty damn good. had some good conversations with niko and that other guy, whose name i forgot (since im bad with names). oh yeah, there was this really cute filipino guy that was sitting next to me at the hookah bar. but hes 23. lmfao! all i remember was his middle name? was philip. i think. idk, i forgot to ask. he did give me his screen name, but then again, i didnt write it down. so yeah.

THIS MORNING
i woke up to ten text messages, and like three missed calls. i answered all of them. and yeah, i ended up sleeping for a bit more, with the occassional break from my nap to reply to the text messages i recieved. tony (the guy i met last night) and chung texted me the most. damn, chung is fucking hilarious. i got up around five, and have been using the computer since then.

hmm, i feel as if im forgetting something to blog about.

OH yeah, i missed the fucking deadline for the fee waiver for SATS. now i have to pay like 90 bucks for that crap. DAMNIT!

and the other day, when i was with tommy, i remember talking to him about _____ and why he has been calling me. and he told me how like ____ was realizing what a great thing he lost and what not. awwww (: that made me smile. but yeah, about that topic. it was really nice to hear. tommy is probably one of my closest homeboys. and im so glad. he is always (OMG, speak of the devil. __ just called. LMFAO) - there for me, andlistens to all my bullshit and problems. and he sees past all the rumors and shit he hears. he took time to get to know me and understand me. which didnt take long. but yeah.

oh another thing. MICHAEL DELOSREYES. so, i bumped into him, when he popped out of no where at my work. i didnt really wanna see him. so, if you dont already know, ive had history with this guy. and we left off on a bad note, on his terms. and basically, hes pretty cool with mikey (my best friend) and they hang out and stuff, which i dont mind at all. but, everytime i see him, i get annoyed and feel disgusted and uncomfortable. i just LOVEEE how he just wants to fix things and make things all better, by acting like nothing had happend. as if he forgot all that SHIT he fucking put me through. -_______- i was talkign to mikey about it, i believe this morning, and i told him (in response to him saying how mike is trying to rebuild a friendship with me )" no thanks.im straight. dont need another piece of shit luggage dragging me down..again." and thats all i really have to say to mike. IDGAF if he reads this either, because CLEARLY he STILL DOES NOT UNDERSTAND what he did to me and put me through. usually, im the forgiving type and i give second chances out fairly easily, but with him, im so cold hearted now, i cant simply forgive and forget what he did. what just bugs me, is how he is trying to rebuild a friendship, when i know, he doesnt understand what he did to me, and by that, his sorries are invalid to me, and are worth shit. i would go on and on about why i hate his guts, but i might say some pretty vulgar shit. so ill stop here.

Oh yeah. my computer is being GAY. like,images wont show up. and all isee is a blank box.
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