MDR Part 2

i only blog about this fucker because he keeps popping up in my fucking life.
when i DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM.
oh, and im pretty damn sure he reads this shit. maybe that way, he'll get a clue.

so, today, he texts me this.

"the broadcasting of your negative views are so entertaining, you should work in hollywood! insults aside, i want you to know that i genuinely intended to squash shit and cease communication with you, but ive decided that your predictability is too fun to leave alone. oh, the look on your face was classic! and if only you had the audacity to muster all of the heinous adjectives and explicatives as rendered form the safety of a keyboard rahter than your nercously plastered smile, i would laugh hysterically at your narrow scope of thought. because while i already know im an asshole, you still wonder why youre a rumored harlot! i wont be spiteful thought, lets stick to the facts, shall we? in the last month youve called, imed, emailed, blogged and texted me. (bullshit) now with all of this attention, how could i not reciprocate just a bit of it? my point exactly. oh and when you get this, try not to rant to mikey about it. he hears enough about you from everyone else. toodles."

and in response i said,
"thats nice, idgaf. you mean nothing ot me anymore and while ive moved on youre sitting here trying to rebuild a friendship with me when im trying to make it clear that i dont want anything to do with you. you will never understand what you put me through even though you got a taste of your own medicine, me. dont you just LOVE how you fell in love with someone just like you. its nice isnt it. while in long over you and blogging about you simply cause you pop in my life unwanted. im not the one sitting in front of a computer reading what a "kid" or a "gold digging whore" has to say about me. dont flatter yourself. oh yeah lets stick with the facts. in this month ive blogged about you simply to retell daily happenings in which youve popped up. i have never emailed you. i dont call unless its on behalf of mikey or to tell you to fuck off. i aimed you thinking youre a changed person from the looks on your myspace. but that was a joke. seriously though. lets stick with the facts. i am the first girl taht has rejected you and that you got caught up with and taht you fell in love with and is FIVE years younger than you. and while it has been well over three months you still try to rebuild a friendship even though you are the same low life piece of shit. while im only 16 and my life is more straight than yours. it wasnt nice knowing you. but thanks for the experience. now im more cold than ever! at least you taught me not to give a fuck for those who treat you like shit. peace."

mike, i dont want to see you. i dont want to talk to you. i dotn want to be around you. the only connection we have with eachother is that it SO HAPPENS, that you are friends with MY BEST FRIEND. oh, and that plastered smile? it was so i would stop myself from puking all over you from seeing your face cause simply, you disgust me.

oh and secondly, dont try to belittle me just becuase you may speak intellectually, because really. you are the reason why i dont give cute guys a chance, because even though you "look good" your personality is like shit! and dont hear it from me, you can hear it from mikey as well.

thirdly, those people who talk about me to my bestfriend are people that are nothng in my life, and will have no affect on my future, so what they say, i could care less.


REMEMBER THIS MIKE, people may talk about me, say all they want, talk all their shit, and hate me for all i care, BUT I WILL NEVER BE ALONE. I WILL NEVER GO A DAY WITHOUT SOMEONE WHO DONEST LOVE ME OR WHO DOESNT CARE ABOUT ME OR ISNT THERE FOR ME. because though i am hated by many, i have those very few who love me a lot, and thats what counts. I WILL NEVER BE ALONE LIKE YOU. although i am just like you, in the sense that im too prideful to lower myself to someone like you, i am NOTHING like you. remember that discussion? when i was laying with you, telling you you arent alone, cause of me. well now, im not there anymore. so just a reminder mike, stop pushing the people who care about you out of your life by makign them "jump through rings of fire" - remember that blog? hmm, seems like, not much as changed. the things you say to people, it matters. just like all the "fuck yous" youve said to mikey. just like all the bullshit screaming and yelling to me about how i made you an option and how i didnt care. dont give me that bullshit, when you knew i cared about you, more than i should of. so dont give other people that bullshit. especially those who love you.

i have nothing to say to you. i dont want anything to do with you. leave me alone. and let me live my life, undisturbed. dont show up at my work uninvited cause "you want to see my face" or come over to my house uninvited expecting me to talk to you. stop trying to push the matter anymore. cause im done. ive been done. ever since the day i walked away from your face full of tears, twice.

bye mike, i have nothing more to say to you or about you. ive expressed enough of my feelings on this computer, but not as much as i have said to your face also. dont forget all those time i told you how i felt. im not trying to "muster" my feelings behind the "safety of my keyboard". ive said it, yelled it, argued about it with you plenty of times before. im done with you. you are my past, and i want you to stay there, forever.